tire fixed!! -- boy i feel very empowerd!
got the keys to the camping trailer and the gate for the mission's property in slippery rock -- looking forward to my "get real" time next week -- i'm going camping for a few days by myself -- bought some new camping gear -- looking so foward to it!
got gas - which if i may, a little side bar -- holiday's stink for screwing up my budget -- yesterday the gas in ghetto new castle was $2.69 - when i didn't need to fill up - had a little under a half of a tank
but two trips to cranberry a trip to new castle and a trip to chippewa cancelled that -- so today i looking to fill up with "cheap" gas -- much to my dismay gas jumped $.10 over night - and now it's jumped another $.10 in just an afternoon -- stinkn' 4th of july!
okay - i'm back from my rant!
i had the pleasure today of hanging with my deacon's daughter -- we went to the slovik shop in grove city -- my little jennifer love hewitt - aka jenn cory - bought me a fun gift from her mission trip to slovaka and i needed to go pick it up -- she went with the owners of the shop -- i was excited - and beth had mentioned she has always wanted to go -- so - we set off for a fun day of construction, my driving, and of course arts and crafts!
it was great -- i've always sort of felt some weird connection with her -- she is an only child and so am i -- she's in college and i work with college students -- in a weird way - i've seen myself as a big sister of sorts -- the slovan's are great -- they sort of adopted me into their family!
so - to hang and get some one-on-one time was cool -- we really talked - of course we shot the breeze a bit - but we really talked -- talked about what we believe, what we struggle with - and just life
not sure -- but i think she was real with me - and opened up a bit -- i'm safe -- i'm not a parent but i'm one who can understand -- she doesn't have to "act" any way with me -- i can understand the crap of life a bit
it was cool to be in her world for a bit -- to really understand what she deals with in maryland -- over all -- good times!
francie
Friday, June 30, 2006
cell phone hell
for 4 years i've had the pleasure or displeasure -- depends on the day -- of having sprint as my wireless carrier
not soo bad -- decent customer service and for the most part good signal. . . until now. . .
not sure what's up with my satanic phone -- but it seems that there is a signal shield around my house and about a 2 block radius around my house
it seems that my phone just doesn't seem to want to make call or for that matter stay connected to a call -- i thought losing my phone at walmart was a big pain in the butt - but then i was able to get this cool phone for half price -- now i know why -- the phone sucks!!
sure it worked fine for about the first month -- had signal everywhere - even places i didn't before -- but now -- not sure -- thank goodness for verizon -- it seems my wireless universe is somehow flip-flopped.
at first i hated my new mission cell phone - and i've hated verizon for some time -- i didn't have any or much signal where i had prior - but now . . . but now. . . if find myself reaching for my mission phone not only at home, but in my office, on route 18, on route 60, even on the turnpike -- either my phone really does suck or sprint's slogan of "yes, you can" is crap -- cuz no i can't!!
sorry - just a few rants about my life connected to the wireless network of cell phones!
francie
not soo bad -- decent customer service and for the most part good signal. . . until now. . .
not sure what's up with my satanic phone -- but it seems that there is a signal shield around my house and about a 2 block radius around my house
it seems that my phone just doesn't seem to want to make call or for that matter stay connected to a call -- i thought losing my phone at walmart was a big pain in the butt - but then i was able to get this cool phone for half price -- now i know why -- the phone sucks!!
sure it worked fine for about the first month -- had signal everywhere - even places i didn't before -- but now -- not sure -- thank goodness for verizon -- it seems my wireless universe is somehow flip-flopped.
at first i hated my new mission cell phone - and i've hated verizon for some time -- i didn't have any or much signal where i had prior - but now . . . but now. . . if find myself reaching for my mission phone not only at home, but in my office, on route 18, on route 60, even on the turnpike -- either my phone really does suck or sprint's slogan of "yes, you can" is crap -- cuz no i can't!!
sorry - just a few rants about my life connected to the wireless network of cell phones!
francie
Thursday, June 29, 2006
i'll never know -- yet i'll know how much it cost. . . .
here's the rest of the story. . .
i attended 19 north tonight -- used to be shift on saturday nights at victory -- i went mostly because i wanted to talk to jode about the sonic flood concert -- i was debating on whether i should go since i'm still riding on the donut - my attept at getting my tire fixed failed -- will happen tomorrow
but nevertheless -- i was standing in my shower trying to get the grease off of me from carrying tires around -- i asked myself what the big deal was -- my car wasn't going to blow up just because i was riding on the donut -- maybe be out of allignment but that's fixable
so - decided to go - off to cranberry i went -
and ya know -- did ya ever know that God was speaking to you -- that what you must do is go to Him -- but you don't? -- well . . . that was me - why?
was it because of the music, my tiredness, the people? - NO -- then what?
jode shared his story -- and then the song they sang was "my desire" by jeremy camp - that's when it hit me -- i didn't go just to see jode - i went cuz i know i'm not alright with my Father -- i know i've screwed up - i know i can't nor do i have the right to stand before Him - i'm really unworthy -- i have no right to stand in the throne room - until i say i'm sorry --
the words of the song cut me -- my desire is to be used by Him - but i'm not -- i'm playing church -- why? -- am i not tired to playing the game? -- what's it going to take for me to straighten up and fly right so to speak?
what's God got to do to grab me -- what's He have to remove from me for me to see?
they ended with the tag from "here i am to worship" - thus, the title for this post --
you know it -- i'll ever know how much it cost to see my sin upon the cross
that's not true -- each time i try to connect -- i know the cost -- i feel it -- i know i've cheapened your grace -- for that i'm sorry - for my selfishness i'm sorry - for my disobedience i'm sorry -- for ignoring you i'm sorry -- so yes, yes, i do know - i feel it -- my hear hurts --
and then when jode opened the alter for prayer -- he said God shared that someone needed to lay it all down -- i knew that was me -- what stopped me? - ME -- my pride - my fear - me.
so - know i need to process -- i need to fall and cry - i need to live out david's cry in psm. 51 - restore unto me - the joy of my salvation and renew a right spirit with in me
cuz you paid way way to high a cost for me to waste it.
i attended 19 north tonight -- used to be shift on saturday nights at victory -- i went mostly because i wanted to talk to jode about the sonic flood concert -- i was debating on whether i should go since i'm still riding on the donut - my attept at getting my tire fixed failed -- will happen tomorrow
but nevertheless -- i was standing in my shower trying to get the grease off of me from carrying tires around -- i asked myself what the big deal was -- my car wasn't going to blow up just because i was riding on the donut -- maybe be out of allignment but that's fixable
so - decided to go - off to cranberry i went -
and ya know -- did ya ever know that God was speaking to you -- that what you must do is go to Him -- but you don't? -- well . . . that was me - why?
was it because of the music, my tiredness, the people? - NO -- then what?
jode shared his story -- and then the song they sang was "my desire" by jeremy camp - that's when it hit me -- i didn't go just to see jode - i went cuz i know i'm not alright with my Father -- i know i've screwed up - i know i can't nor do i have the right to stand before Him - i'm really unworthy -- i have no right to stand in the throne room - until i say i'm sorry --
the words of the song cut me -- my desire is to be used by Him - but i'm not -- i'm playing church -- why? -- am i not tired to playing the game? -- what's it going to take for me to straighten up and fly right so to speak?
what's God got to do to grab me -- what's He have to remove from me for me to see?
they ended with the tag from "here i am to worship" - thus, the title for this post --
you know it -- i'll ever know how much it cost to see my sin upon the cross
that's not true -- each time i try to connect -- i know the cost -- i feel it -- i know i've cheapened your grace -- for that i'm sorry - for my selfishness i'm sorry - for my disobedience i'm sorry -- for ignoring you i'm sorry -- so yes, yes, i do know - i feel it -- my hear hurts --
and then when jode opened the alter for prayer -- he said God shared that someone needed to lay it all down -- i knew that was me -- what stopped me? - ME -- my pride - my fear - me.
so - know i need to process -- i need to fall and cry - i need to live out david's cry in psm. 51 - restore unto me - the joy of my salvation and renew a right spirit with in me
cuz you paid way way to high a cost for me to waste it.
fixn' what's flat
so, last night i pulled off the turnpike onto route 18 after a fun night of processing donuts at krispy kreme when. . . all of a sudden i heard metal smacking off my car . . . what the crap!?
i started to see tire fragments and my car pulling to the left -- i was about 5 miles from home -- so -- being bull-headed that i am -- i kept going knowing i may screw up the rim -- but i did it anyway.
so, i get home - pull on the off street since it was stree sweeping - and saw my back tire on the passenger's side was flatter than a pancake!
so - i thought i'll do it tomorrow - or i would bug the geneva guys living next to me to change it -- but i then realized i needed to be at work early cuz a youth group was going. so, i decided to try it myself -- after all -- i've changed one tire before i can do it again! and i was also thinkn' i always have aflac if i get hurt!!! - cue the duck!!
i must say. . . it was easier than i had thought -- i was so cool! - i figured out how to use the crappy jack - was able to break the lug nuts loose and pull the tire off. my only problem was not being able to see to put the donut on -- after a few failed attempts. . . i decided to wait until morning.
i left my car jacked up -- like anyone would steal it with fake christmas trees inside and no tire on the back! i woke up early - went out and bam! - put the donut on with such ease!! - i feel like a woman now!!! - i'm not a dumb girl who needs guys to take care of me -- i can do all things - why cause my Jesus helps me!!
my joy was then flatened by the trak to work -- why is it that daily my forward motion is impeeded by large trucks, slow moving cars, and just plain stupid drivers!? -- i hate route 18!
and the rest of the story later!
francie
i started to see tire fragments and my car pulling to the left -- i was about 5 miles from home -- so -- being bull-headed that i am -- i kept going knowing i may screw up the rim -- but i did it anyway.
so, i get home - pull on the off street since it was stree sweeping - and saw my back tire on the passenger's side was flatter than a pancake!
so - i thought i'll do it tomorrow - or i would bug the geneva guys living next to me to change it -- but i then realized i needed to be at work early cuz a youth group was going. so, i decided to try it myself -- after all -- i've changed one tire before i can do it again! and i was also thinkn' i always have aflac if i get hurt!!! - cue the duck!!
i must say. . . it was easier than i had thought -- i was so cool! - i figured out how to use the crappy jack - was able to break the lug nuts loose and pull the tire off. my only problem was not being able to see to put the donut on -- after a few failed attempts. . . i decided to wait until morning.
i left my car jacked up -- like anyone would steal it with fake christmas trees inside and no tire on the back! i woke up early - went out and bam! - put the donut on with such ease!! - i feel like a woman now!!! - i'm not a dumb girl who needs guys to take care of me -- i can do all things - why cause my Jesus helps me!!
my joy was then flatened by the trak to work -- why is it that daily my forward motion is impeeded by large trucks, slow moving cars, and just plain stupid drivers!? -- i hate route 18!
and the rest of the story later!
francie
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Livn' in the state of confusion
have ya ever been in the land of confusion and knew why - yet part of you didn't want to clear it up -- well. . . that's where i've been for a minute or so.
i'm stuck knowing my choices have cost me what i knew it would - but at the time i didn't care.
it's funny - as i think about a year ago -- i can remember camping, reading, journaling, and just really growing -- desiring to grow -- desiring to become less in order for Him to be more in me, through me, and beyond me. but my selfishness set in -- i wanted what i wanted and nothing was going to stop me -- now look -- this summer is. . . overcast - in more ways than one.
i know what i need to do - but i'm stuck -- i must fall/break - but i'm too prideful -- how could i walk this way again? - i feel like my Savior is like my friend trudi -- so close - she only lives 30 minutes from me - but we never see each other. - not because i can't but because we don't really make the time.
that's me -- i haven't really made the time -- i'm caught up in planning, organizing, stragetizing - and i've lost sight of what's most important - the main thing isn't the main thing any more .
where is my fire, my passion, my zeal and zest for the Kingdom? -- just like my keys - i know they are there - i just can't remember where i've placed them -- maybe i need to STOP - retrace my steps -- look back before i look ahead!
i'm stuck knowing my choices have cost me what i knew it would - but at the time i didn't care.
it's funny - as i think about a year ago -- i can remember camping, reading, journaling, and just really growing -- desiring to grow -- desiring to become less in order for Him to be more in me, through me, and beyond me. but my selfishness set in -- i wanted what i wanted and nothing was going to stop me -- now look -- this summer is. . . overcast - in more ways than one.
i know what i need to do - but i'm stuck -- i must fall/break - but i'm too prideful -- how could i walk this way again? - i feel like my Savior is like my friend trudi -- so close - she only lives 30 minutes from me - but we never see each other. - not because i can't but because we don't really make the time.
that's me -- i haven't really made the time -- i'm caught up in planning, organizing, stragetizing - and i've lost sight of what's most important - the main thing isn't the main thing any more .
where is my fire, my passion, my zeal and zest for the Kingdom? -- just like my keys - i know they are there - i just can't remember where i've placed them -- maybe i need to STOP - retrace my steps -- look back before i look ahead!
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
My experiment
okay -- i've been pondering using this has a way to express myself - but my poor spelling has kept me away,however, i've decided it's about time to try something new. . . so here i go!
i've called this post "my experiment" cuz i'm not sure if the public is really ready to read what's really goin' on inside of me. i must place a disclaimer now -- this site will not be used soley for sweet, cute, or uplifting thoughts. i will not wax on continuely about church, polictial, or denominational crap - although i will touch on it because they do affect my life. i will not always be cheery, encouraging, or for that matter super Christian.
i will be real -- honestly sharing my hurts, joys, cares, struggles -- and at times i may even cuss a bit or use very figurative language -- don't shoot me or write me off because of it -- that's just me being me!
for so long i've been a loner - not really sharing who i am or what makes me tick. i've been challenged of as late by a dear friend to seek accountablity -- i preach about it but have never done it -- so, in some ways i'm using this forum in essence as a form of accountability -- i want others to know what's happening within me -- to question me -- to ask me the hard questions i refuse to ask myself. my sole desire is to know Christ and to make Him known. so, if you come across this site and desire to challenge me -- please do -- but please do it in a loving/kingdom building way.
okay enough for now
In His Grip,
Francie
i've called this post "my experiment" cuz i'm not sure if the public is really ready to read what's really goin' on inside of me. i must place a disclaimer now -- this site will not be used soley for sweet, cute, or uplifting thoughts. i will not wax on continuely about church, polictial, or denominational crap - although i will touch on it because they do affect my life. i will not always be cheery, encouraging, or for that matter super Christian.
i will be real -- honestly sharing my hurts, joys, cares, struggles -- and at times i may even cuss a bit or use very figurative language -- don't shoot me or write me off because of it -- that's just me being me!
for so long i've been a loner - not really sharing who i am or what makes me tick. i've been challenged of as late by a dear friend to seek accountablity -- i preach about it but have never done it -- so, in some ways i'm using this forum in essence as a form of accountability -- i want others to know what's happening within me -- to question me -- to ask me the hard questions i refuse to ask myself. my sole desire is to know Christ and to make Him known. so, if you come across this site and desire to challenge me -- please do -- but please do it in a loving/kingdom building way.
okay enough for now
In His Grip,
Francie
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