the old made new

i finished watching one of my favoriate movies last night before i went to bed. it was right towards in the end when my cell phone rang -- it was my "jake"

we hung out -- it was nice. we laughed, talked about football, we talked - really talked - it was comfortable - not awakard at all. i feel like reese witherspoon - i like my life - but this fits too. i can see he's trying to submit -- he told me about the things he's talked to God on -- and it has nothing to do with me -- that's good. i was able to share what i've been praying for in regard to him -- i explained i've been praying that God would apprend him and capture his heart again -- he told me he thinks God's doing that.

the one thing i've always liked about my "jake" is he is honest - he speaks his heart - not his mind -- you can see his emotions in his words -- and he's straight up with ya. he challenges me to be honest as well - to not sugar coat things - he sees through my masks to the real me.

we took a step forward -- movie night and dinner -- i make dinner - he brings the movies - he says mine are corny - go figure -- chic clicks corny! but this time - he told me to "bring my girls" -- he wants to meet the folks in my life -- that's not the darryel i knew -- he has changed and matured.

i'm not leaping blindly -- i'm not rushing ahead -- we are both very aware what "we" want - but we keep reminding each other -- it's not about what we want - it's about what God wants and where and how He is leading -- i'm not going to lie -- i want my wants to be God's - but this is where i need to submit and surrender - not my will but your's - much easier said then done - but i'm not alone -- he is faithful -- He will teach me, guide me, and lead me - as long as i'm willing to obey.

trust and obey for there's no other way - to be happy in Jesus but to trust and obey