hump day maddness

oh yet but another night of krispy kreme fun - and fun it was -- another night of the line breaking, new girls, and the big boss - the president, ken being in. but i was able to make myself a fun filled cup of double chocolate hot chocolate with tons of whipped creme - that made my night!

and i learned something new. . . we can make our dounuts into the shapes of footballs - how fun is that?!!

but mostly - i was able to pray, ponder, reflect and just ask my daddy questions -- why is being in charge so stressfull? - i wonder what jesus felt like being the leader of 12 -- tonight i walked into the "kreme" and bryan - the assistant general mananger visably appeared to be losing it -- i took some time to ask what was wrong -- he proceeds to tell me that he has been trying to leave since 3pm and just can't seem to get out the door -- too much drama! - he said his wife keeps asking him why he can't eat dinner with them lately -- my heart went out to him -- here he is - struggling to do the best he can and not feeling like he's accomplishing anything -- how often do i feel like that?! - all the time.

i know there are some in my life that isn't happy with my views and my leadership - i feel like i'm screwed either way -- i don't want to be the bad guy yet i can't say for certain that "this is God's timing and leading" -- all through out scripture we see God confirming His leading through His word - and in my own life i can testify to that -- when i sense God's leading - it's always confirmed as I read, study and hear His Word taught, as well as through others in my life.

i often pray for God to prepare the way . . . to already be working in another's life before i have to speak with or ask for something -- to give me favor in man's eyes - not for me but for His Glory and to further His kingdom. i just don't see that "preparing the way" thing here. maybe i'm not looking for it - what's stopping me? - i'm not really worried about how things will work cuz my God reassures me that He's got me and He's not letting go. that's where i am walking n faith.

God i just ask that as we open your Word - prepare the way - lead, guide and direct and allow us to be willing to listen and obey.

francie