an empty church

as i looked around the santucary of my church today, this thought came to my head. . . not only was it an empty church attendence wise but in heart and unity as well.

i remember a year ago when God gave me this image of many bodies in the chairs but i couldn't see the faces. i realized then that now more than ever was God calling Beaver to something huge - bigger than us!

but what's our problem?

where are those butts that belong in those seats?

as pastor spoke about how Jesus' death reconciled us to God - one point he made as now we must be reconiled with each other - Christians all over the world have no reason to seperated by act,motives,words, etc cuz the blood of Christ is more than enough.

well. . . why does it seem it's easy to preach about and to teach on - but why can't our church life this out? why can't grown adults talk cival to one another and why can't we truely be honest?

I don't think it's fair to pastor for folks not sharing by now what's made them mad enough to leave - he can't help work on what he doesn't know is wrong - BUT - i don't think it's right to just sit back and make others come to you in the name of being biblical -- when really it's just a cop out.

it's weird. . . i feel like a stranger in my own church. due to my life at the mission and in campus ministry, i've been gone alot this month -- so to me, all of the drama is third person -- none of it really involves or effects me per say. yes, it does effect me cuz i'm a memeber of the church - but i'm seeing it a bit more neutral. i'm not against the pastor - however, i do see areas where he hasn't listend to the people and i do see where at times his wife can be a bit rough - but can't we all. i don't feel he deserves to be kicked out - what i do feel is we need to clean the air -- we need to first repent before our Father and then to each other -- it's hurts that several familes are gone with hurt and bitter feelings unsolved -- that does nothing good. it just causes a rift in the body as a whole.

oh we all should listen to david platt's teaching on what a true biblcal church is -- i'm sure we are not matching up at all

May God break us and cause us to see with His eyes, and feel with His heart -- we are His church - and a church divided only serves man and satan on our Lord/Master/ and Head.