reconciling what was with what is. . . why is that so hard to do? in many ways it feels like a life time ago but really hasn't been that long. yesterday i was told i was quieter than usuall - yes, i'll admit i was a bit stoic but not because i was mad at anyone as this person thought - i was just wrestling with how to move forward without losing or forgetting what was behind. last week's venture to gcc was a reminder of what was - strange but a good reminder. yet what's ahead excites as well. growing wings and flying all part of the cycle of life - if birds never flew they would surely die.

as a first semester freshmen, i had to read a book entitled - you can never go home again - at the time i thought it was stupid and one of those required things i just wanted to finish to check off of my list - but too often over the years, i've referred back to that book or let's say just the title -- "home" whatever that is for you - whether it be a physical site, a residence, a job, a person, etc. - will only remain the same in your head - it changes and grows just as we do being away - sometimes the changes are too great for one to go home again. that's what i'm pondering.

in other news: my second critical book review is done and in the can - ahead of time - go me! this one was harder despite having completed a first of it's kind ealier in the semester - it was harder because a 49/50 on the first trip out lends it'self to alot of pressure. i actually think this one took me longer to finish.

priase God for the second job - i've needed the funds really bad lately -- extra fees for school that i was unaware of, twice broken down car issues, repairs in my apartment . . . -- God is so providing for me and i still have money to eat -- and eat healthy i may add!

okay, i guess that's all for now